2010/06/29

today morning class....finish go computer lab online again.....suddenlly get lao gong msg,but for the time in london is morning 5am....siow lol,he so early wake up cheak mail.....haiz,i feel lao gong so pity n i also vry heart pain.....

So about 12pm only back hostel,coz feel hungry want back hostel cook maggie....coz want save money....tis month over ady...become now no money,so tonight dinner is roti with white coffee....my roommate finish eat maggie is prepare go sungai wang green box meet my classmate...n i go where leh....i alone go oldtown online,wait lao gong online....so we can chat....

when i arrive oldtown....so i hear song,but dunno wat happen my laptop speaker suddelly no sound....really is SHIT....make whole laptop be hang hang siow siow....all thing cannot open....movie cannot,online cannot,hear song cannot....all cannot....really is stupid....today is stupid day....today is bad day...coz i so bad luck...bad mood....bad feel.....

today i go chat with lao gong....be4 chat still happy but dunno y...chat more mood also less more.....today totally vry unhappy...ever chat with lao gong also like want gaduh...tat really is bad feeling for me...heart feel so pain,i dunno u r real trush me anot...say n do is not same....do is more difficult....u word can believe anot? i jz can say half half only...we long time din like tat ady,like tat is good for us or bad???
i feel so sad,coz we distance r so far....we cannot face to face settle our problem...gic computer is not easy to settle...so how?i was vry sorry,coz i bad luck bad mood make u same with me...i really feel sorry n want say sorry with u EDWIN SIEW KEAN SEONG....

I think is time to giv my brain rest,no giv her think too much more....coz think all d thing is bad thing....is no good for me....today is my bad day,hope fasted pass it....i dislike with lao gong tis feel,tis feeling make each other heart pain...i dun wan say more....i hate today,i hate my self......

after pay bil,walk back hostel.....when on the way back it is raining,but jz abit only....tis weather can giv me image so much time,i think the shy is same with me...so are crying...rain giv other hard to see my tear are follow out...arrive home,take a bath...n close n lock my room door....lying at bed,start cry...crying can make me feel better....